I Don't Do Well with Father's Days

I don't do well with Father's days
I never knew my own
I never really saw one up and close til I was halfway grown
i never saw mine up and close til I was fully grown
but who i feel the most for is them
its hard being a father
when youre not with the mother
and things might not be what they should
and the generation of my father
was the same age as me now when they had their daughters
and sons
my father has 1 daughter, maybe 2
and like 9 sons
I got one daughter
and sometimes i feel like i'm failing her
just her
i dont do well with father's days
and its rare anymore that i cry
its like the wells are running dry
today i think the last drops fell from my eye
my mother cooked me a breakfast for father's day and bout me a card
i swear never celebrated father's day before
never before
and as a father i feel like i could do more
buts its hard sometimes when you're poor
i hold her
and i play with her
and show her i love her
but how the situation is with her mother...
i start to understand
how my father could have became that man
i cant even blame that man
in my life i've sang the same relatable refrain
"pop, how could i blame you cause you couldn't maintain?"
look like we doing the same thang
I dont do well with fathers days
cuz i hate to see noone who wants to celebrate
so few of my people have fathers to buy a tie for
noone taught them to tie a tie before
a deacon
a coach
those are the closest things to fathers we kno
"its complicated" best describes that relationship
with most
if you got a father, hold him close
and if you can hug another you know
cuz its hard
i dont do well with fathers days at all
i should've gotten my mother a card...