U Gotta Love Yourself

Get real scared
Real fast
picture freddy kruger
a gremlin
and a hairy smelly ass
i find myself with my back to this wall
and thats what i'm starin at
The wall is cold
The way room temperature can be sometimes
With my warm back pressed so snugly against it
I find comfort in this position
because its too damn ugly to be pretentious
and ugly stands for U gotta love yourself
U gotta love yourself
ugly
"let me hold something playa",
"boy its ugly today"
you ever seen someone so sexy you had to look away
but see, i can look ugly right in the face
from the dirty pissy j's
thats all over the place
to the eye sore where i was raised sir
i seen ugly like
okay
pickin which bills ima pay
i seen ugly like i dont got nowhere to stay
buckshot beedebee pam ugly
aunt esther ugly
old bad bottom gorilla faced hussy
ugly
ol frog-eyed fish eating fool
ugly
and i aint have no tv show to make it funny
or money to make it cool
i know it feels good to be pretty
riding tall through the city
And i live in Midtown
with the pretty buildings
and the pretty people
in their pretty little cars
and pretty little make-up
to cover ugly ass scars
because with beauty comes insecurity
we just wanna be where the pretty people are
but its something about knowing shit is not looking good
less stress-bound
thats why you feel liberated when you dress down, dont you
dont you
and yea,
yea, it feels good to be pretty
ridin tall through the city
but pretty falls apart and they dont make enough glue
ugly know its ugly and ugly know what to do
ugly aint scared of no mirror
could i say that about you?
tryin to keep up with appearances
thats running from you
that junkie lady pissin outside
on the ground
downtown
she aint scared of no mirror
cuz she cant hide from the fact that shit is ugly right now
so even though shit is ugly right now
its comforting
in the same way as fuckin a ugly woman is
you know she aint cheatin
and you dont care if she is
what you see is what you get
and it is what it is
U gotta love yourself
sometimes that mirror can make it hard to love yourself
Ugly
from where im standing shit is ugly
with my back against this wall
from this side of the mirror
but ugly aint scared of ugly
and i'll get ugly right wit ya
cuz i aint here to look pretty
im here to paint a picture
that shit is ugly right now
but its cool
cuz i love myself

Ke

It was better than any surprise any child ever got

This key I found to a reinforced lock

On a box

That i had owned and treasured

Then thrown away and forgotten

at the bottom of my closet

I thought I lost it

Under all my old clothes

under all my skeletons

Thing is, a locked box hidden under scary skeletons is easily forgotten

Especially when there's no key to unlock it

So I devalued what was inside it, and convinced myself that I would never find it

I even tryed to convince myself that there was never any box

Never any lock

Cuz the skeletons are scary and the closet is dark

And if it ever did exist, its all they way at the bottom

and its way easier on my mind to stop looking

So while blinded by closed eyes

Frozen cold, and closed minded

I was blinded sided by some shining object

Like sUnshine

It was a key

A key I had found and had been carrying around in my pocket

Now it was shining,

This key

Brightening everything around it,

So bright it was like it was all i could see anymore

And i couldn't imagine how i never noticed before

And I cleaned up my world

under the light it gave off

The sUnshine I saw

motivated me to want more

But I still had no box,

and I still had no lock

And my skeletons are scary

and my closet is dark

and I wouldn't dare approach that hellish closet

with this beautiful key

Can i tarnish the sUnshine with this dark side of me.

I was protecting the key

I had forgotten the box

Devalued the love that lied under the lock

because it lied under my scary skeletons

and I lied to myself so long

But the key found the box on its own

The key unbound the lock

And inside was the best feeling i ever forgot

Better than any surprise any child ever got

Instantly i felt

safe

secure

appreciated

warm

special

admired

adored*

not to mention spoiled rotten

But these are only words

without the feeling inside it

they cant begin to describe it

the long lost content of real love

I thought I'd never find it

But i found it in my girlfriend

Her name is Keanna

I call her Ke.

The Point

Get that bullshit off your mind and try to prepare for something real within the next 5 seconds

Confusion doesnt wear a name tag
and answers dont broadcast locations
theres no app for that
I got an app called Point
but it cant give me direction
whats the point
good question
ima just address it
yall can gps it
I told God im lost,
send an angel to find me
Life is real and hell is hot
and the streets are cold
so you work and you hate work
and then you go home
and you hate home
cus not a single living soul
will ever be who you want them to be
what you want them to be
when you want them to be
and you eat so you can work
and you work so you can eat
but the grind doesnt quench your thirst
you drink water
just to fill your well of tears but you never cry
if youre lucky you get a shoulder to hold your head
and a hand to wipe em dry
but never the whole person thats beside you
and they ask you whats the problem
and they mean it from the heart
but the problem is you got so many problems
you cant tell them apart
and you dont have a solution and thats the problem
and its just cycles
and the rings start interlocking like the olympics
but this life aint a game
and you can run in circles as fast as you can
but you'll never get a medal to hang
over your heart
so the interlocking rings just become a chain
so let me ask you this, what the fuck is the point?
Well
God would die for me, thats the point
My daughter never sounds so happy as when she says daddy
thats the point
and love has its shortcomings
but thats beside the point
I owe it to myself and thats the motherfucking point
And i'm in line behind my breaking point
I got clothes, I got shoes,
Yea, im cool
And these women love a nigga too
but that aint the point
To make life easier for the next man
Thats the point
To sacrifice
because money doesn't suffice
and nothing with a price
is even part of the point
God would die for me
I tell myself thats got to be the point
Cuz honestly, i dont know
I just write poetry
these are just ideas
these are just my tears
these are just my years
these are just my fears
and it may not apply to you, these are just Naijeer
trying to let these words freshen a bitter taste
this aint a test
and i wont get a big red check or a smiley face sticker
so whats the point
they say theres a heaven after all this
is that the point
if i get rich i cant take it with
case and point
everybody has felt hopeless
like whats the point
My mama say this sound pessimistic
Thats the point
I cant sulk
But a young man's hope
Thats gotta be part of the point
A man with no job
met a man with no hands
no fingers to point
and im confused
like you once were
like you are now
and just like you
i keep going
even without knowing the point
Yo this all we get and this is all we got
Confusion does NOT wear a name tag
and answers dont broadcast locations
theres no app for that
I got an app called Point
but it cant give me direction
whats the point
good question
I just addressed it
yall can gps it