Stream of Consciousness #4

Okay folks, enough with the gay jokes... (lol) I'm silly and i quote movies alot. That comes from 8 Mile. No laughing matter today tho. (I'm putting on my serious face now) Okay. So... theres this girl (not a groupie like (i had the bitch name up here but the bitch made me delete it) (sorry for putting your gov't up here, i never got your middle name. ;) lol) The girl i'm talking about today has had my attention for about four years. But the thing is, i used to talk to her sister. Only for a while. And it wasn't serious. We just basically hung out. But still.
So anyway i tagged her in one of my poems that i posted on my facebook. She said...
"bruh , i can't fake.....ive never read any of ya notes b4 ....i'ont even kno wat made me read it , but dat shyt was nasty........respect."
Did I leave it there... ... What u think? So i kept tagging her in some of the new things I wrote because although I dont know her well, she gives me a vibe so good it tells me everything i need to know about her and her compliments make me BLUSH like a little girl. No lie. Anyway, she keeps responding and eventually I approach her. Over facebook but still, I approached her. And i think she blew me off. Anyway, i picked my face up and let it go, i kept tagging her and maybe leaving a comment sometimes because i still like her but I wasn't like holding out any hope or nothing.
All of a sudden, today she comments on a picture I have up of Lauryn Hill (who is my BABY and I love her and I've never met her)... Crazy that her of all people would comment on the Lauryn pic because I like her for all the reasons I like Lauryn. I told her that. She asked what the reasons were and I told her. Well, I told her a few of them but not all. I'll copy and paste what I did say and even what she responded with in a second but first i'ma finish saying everything that I didn't want to say to her. First of all, there is a type of woman that doesn't call black men "niggas" (which i dont particularly have a problem with) and she doesn't call them "guys" She calls them black men. She will say "black man" to you how someone else would say your name. Another girl from Newark made me fall in love with those type of women. (although not with her) She made me realize that there is a type of girl that suits me perfectly and the "black man" thing is just one of the earmarks I go by to identify them. I dont meet them as often as I would like to. Anyway Lauryn is one of them and she has all the earmarks. ... And so does the girl i'm writing all this about. I so hope she's not reading this. (EMBARASSING) If you are reading this, I want you to know (and i dont give a fuck how corny it sounds) YOU ARE MY DREAMGIRL. Word up.
Anyway, here is the convo.:


Naijeer Watson May 31 at 7:35pm btw, already knew u would love Lauryn Hill cuz i dig u for the same reasons i dig her... .

(her name) May 31 at 8:29pm && wat reason is that?
Sent via Facebook Mobile .

Naijeer Watson May 31 at 8:39pm I was hoping you would ask that. 1: Jersey girl. I love it, i love it, cant get enough of it. I get along better with them because they understand the way i interact with them. 2: You have something positive on your mind nearly all the time and you have a desire to share it with those around u. Thats beautiful. 3: From what I've seen of you (just at your crib and from your statuses and comments from time to time) we have alot more in common than just the city we came from. But coming from Newark is way different from being from anywhere else and u know that. 4. But now i'm draggin so last but not least you are beautiful. All the way around. Your smile is original and suits you perfectly. Your sexuality is original and suits you perfectly (again, from what i've seen). Basically, black woman I love your style and I think you would love mine if you knew me... .

Naijeer Watson May 31 at 9:12pm please dont leave that mesage unreplied .

(her name) May 31 at 9:18pm that was special......i appreciate all that Mr Watson....I can say the same about u.....I love the fact that when u part ur lips its pure poetry without even trying.........ps , i been stalking ur blog on the low =)



So... I ask for her number. She leaves me flat hangin....
I'm beat.

I guess if dreamgirls were obtainable they would just be girls. Dont hurt to dream tho right...